December 31, 2016


2016 was def one for the books. To be completely honest, this year flew by but I feel like I say that every year. But it felt extra fast because I was really enjoying myself lolz. 
The beginning of 2016 was fun aye eff like literally, the first day. I ended up shaking my tail feather all of NYE and came home at like 6am. My body was in so much pain it was the craziest thing - I felt like I did an insanity workout but it was just wearing heels for a ridiculous amount of hours. And I never even did insanity but I just image that's how you feel after. Life was then became alright. I was still in university so that's that and was also doing an internship at a fashion magazine, which I ended up dreading unfortunately. The highlight of all that was me getting my degree! It was a long time coming and I couldn't have been more excited especially since PRESIDENT BARACK OBAMA was our keynote speaker. It was so surreal like wow Rutgers, you did one thing right lol. 
So fast forward to the good stuff that woke me the hell up and helped me get my mind right. After I graduated, I was having like my third quarter life crisis cause I had no idea what the heck I wanted to do with my life. I mean I did but I wasn't sure of it. I wasn't sure if I wanted to write because I hated my internship - there was nothing wrong with the people, I just couldn't stand being in an office. To make a long story short, all I can say is following my instinct has never paid off so much and I thank the universe for giving me that courage. After traveling, meeting incredible people and listening to their stories, things started to fall into place as to what I wanted to do and I became sure of it. I also met a writer (my brother's friend's girlfriend lol) who helped me get my shit together, opened up a few opportunities and gave me the confidence to keep writing. Like she gets the life I wanna live cause she's doing it which is why I'm doing what I'm doing. 
As per usual, I have no idea where I'm going with this but the moral of my 2016 story is to just do it, like Nike. I don't know what "it" is for you but just get it done. Sometimes I just wanna shake people because they're so afraid of doing whatever gets them going. Trust and believe I was that person too but taking myself out of my comfort zone has allowed me to grow so much more than I could have every imagined. I feel like I'm fearless now, to an extent lol. I honestly don't know what would have happened if I didn't reject the few jobs that offered me positions after graduation. That's another hot mess story lol but hope that gives you a little insight on what I mean by following your gut. I guess it might be hard for some people because everyone's situation is different but I kid you not, if you put your mind and determination to it - it's doable. Personally, I'm not a person who needs easy just possible. As you can see, I'm trying to be motivational here but sometimes that's what people need. I've learned to become patient with my timing and from what I've been told, I'm not doing as bad as I thought lol. 
Not too sure what your goals are for 2017 but whatever they are, do it with all that you got. Seriously. The other day I read on Twitter that humans are the only mammals that are conscious that they will die. If that doesn't get you moving to follow your dream, I have no idea what will. It's pathetic that we know that one day we will die but still decide to live a mediocre life. I'm getting to deep into this so let me wrap this up lol. 
As a human living on Earth, shit hit the fan in 2016. There were many deaths, disturbing bombing i.e. Aleppo, and ridiculous political outcomes especially living in the US. We all wanted 2016 to be over and it is basically coming to an end. Personally, I found a silver lining in my cloud of confusion but hopefully we find that silver lining in humanity too. I have tons of hope for this next year and look forward to what it brings.